Thoughtlessness.

The first time I realized this,
It's going to be ok,

The first time I fell asleep,
numb and useless,
I don't need hope.

Never letting go,
Never giving up,
Always keeping close.

My thoughts change with the wind
Timeless presence
Inevitably coming to a close,
Things changed.

For better or worse,
There's nothing I can do,
Creating my own path
Judging myself too harshly.

Hoping for the approval,
Never receiving the praise.
Down and down,
Not good enough.

Who cares about it,
I will be me,
It's not up to you,
Hope you understand.